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| Monday, October 29th, 2007 | | 4:30 am |
| | Friday, April 21st, 2006 | | 4:31 am |
Why do I listen to sappy music like 'Adia'? Cause I'm gay, that's why, and you're all douchebags for judging me. ...Douchebags. I'm 'sensitive'. | | Friday, April 14th, 2006 | | 8:14 pm |
| | 8:08 pm |
If Flavor Flav dies a horrible death, I will be a happy man. The IDEA of this 'show' is RIDICULOUS beyond ALL COMPARISON. I look at Ninja Strikes Back, and, yet, I can find nothing. Ninja Strikes Back is, like, AWESOME, while this... this TRAVESTY TO TELEVISION is... ARGH. WHAT. FUCK. THE. WADFH!@*( | | Thursday, April 6th, 2006 | | 12:22 am |
I got a postcard, today, from my dear Natalie! <3 Nat, and I'm pretty sure I know you're reading this, now. =P | | Friday, March 31st, 2006 | | 6:09 am |
Embarassed
I feel embarassed about some things I said to someone that I thought I didn't actually know. I almost want to apologize for them, for saying them at all, because... I don't know why. I guess that I've always felt... I've always felt like... I don't know. Like I was intimidated, awed by them, and... My saying the things I've said... lessens me, and that somehow, by admitting things, that I've wronged them, somehow. I don't know. I'm very tired, and perhaps I should sleep. Goodnight. | | 5:33 am |
Bedouin Soundclash
Still have no idea what the name means. But I like the music. Sort of a Canadian, folk-rock reggae. Very relaxing to listen to, calms me down like nothin' else. It's odd, I've been finding that, lately, I've been needing music, more and more, just to get through my day. It's one of the few things that makes me passionate, now. I've lost my writing, I've lost whatever else I had(I think it was educating myself), and I'm slowly losing my desire to read the mountains and mountains of books I used to tear through every few days. Music, though, is still with me, and it gives me the energy. I find myself sometimes crying as I sing, soundlessly, to the music. It's cause I'm a pussy. Oh well, fuck you if you think of less of me for being emotional. I always have been, and if you didn't know that, then you probably can't tell the difference between your ass and a hole in the ground. Why soundlessly? Why don't I do what pisses me off from other people, and sing loudly? Because I appreciate the music enough not to interject on it with my poor singing voice. There are worse singers, yes, but that doesn't make me good. "When the night feels my song... I'll be home, I'll be home..." | | 5:19 am |
I actually have a lot to think about, now. A lot has been going on lately, but not so much in that events have been occuring, but more that my thoughts, and feelings, have been changing. I'm beginning to come to terms with the horrible, almost overwhelming, loneliness. Which is to say, I'm not becoming less lonely, but I'm coming to realize just how vast it is, and how dangerous it's becoming to me. I'm not yet at the points where I can deal with it, because of how long it's been looming over me, without me even realizing it. It seems that all this time, all my sadness, rage, confusion... It's all been stemming from that. From my enforced loneliness, the solitude that kept me locked away, and not letting the people who care - or cared, as may be the case - close enough to truly understand me. I think that, even now, nobody really understands me. Not even me. But that's my own fault, and in distancing myself from others, I distanced myself from... Well, myself. I can say the usual spiel; I'll get over it, in time. It'll all be good, don't worry about me, you know I always come out kicking. But I don't know if it's true, anymore. I realize that by talking about this, by exposing it to the people I actually don't want to see this, that I'm not helping anything. I'll get the usual comments about it, and, as usual, won't feel like they're truly heartfelt, that people don't really care. But that's the depression talking, like it always is. I truly hope I'm happy, one day. No matter, though. "I always come out kicking." I think I will make another journal, one that nobody will see. | | Wednesday, February 1st, 2006 | | 10:58 pm |
To be a PM
Five Things meme (tagged by Brandi, Laura's other half) Five jobs I have had in my life: 1. Dish pig 2. Gardener 3. Pita boy 4. Inventory Slave 5. Warehouse Slave Five movies I would watch over and over again (in no particular order): 1. Princess Bride 2. Boondock Saints 3. Flatliners 4. Final Fantasy: Advent Children 5. Clerks Five places I have lived: 1. Edmonton, Alberta 2. Oak Bay, Victoria, BC 3. Fairfield, Victoria, BC 4. Burnaby, BC 5. Vancouver, BC Five TV shows I love to watch: 1. Family Guy 2. Mythbusters 3. Weird History Shows 4. The Daily Show 5. Corner Gas Five places I have been on vacation: 1. Saskataoon 2. Calgary 3. Australia 4. Seattle 5. ZOMG DISNEYLAND Five websites I visit daily: 1. Uh, Livejournal. 2. www.worldofwarcraft.com 3. www.blackdawnguild.com (My WoW guild) 4. Least I Could Do 5. GU Comics Five of my favourite foods: 1. Sushi, bitch. I said it. 2. Mashed potatos and sausages, with gravy. 3. Perogies 4. Burritos 5. Steak Five places I’d rather be right now: 1. Bed? 2. Australia 3. Texas 4. Florida 5. Victoria, BC Five songs you like but are embarrassed to admit: 1. I dunno, something by Janet Jackson 2. For the Longest Time, by Billy Joel 3. Dashboard Confessional. Oh noez, emo? 4. Alexisonfire, Control 5. Kanye West - I Heard Them Say | | Friday, January 20th, 2006 | | 4:33 pm |
Oh awesome, literally, 30 seconds after I posted that, I get a call from work. Burnie is apparently keying me in for 5pm start, though I am sick as a dog. | | 4:31 pm |
| | Tuesday, January 17th, 2006 | | 6:18 am |
Woosh. What a feeling, to feel like you're... like you're so thoroughly beaten. Ah, well. Missed opprotunities, and the like. Here's to you, shagface. | | Friday, January 13th, 2006 | | 5:05 am |
This quiz ends gayly, this is your warning.
Getting Started* Name: Allen James Oberg Age: 22 Zodiac Sign: Taurus Height: 6'2" Nationality: Canadian Ethnic background(s): Uh, white. Deeper* Are you happy?: Never have been. I don't think 'happiness' is what I'm after, at the moment. I'm more looking to enjoy my life, and I'm doing that, in my own way. Do you watch a lot of tv?: Not so much, these days. What's your shoe size?: 12-13. 12.5. Shut up. Do you like skirts or pants better?: Pants. Er, for me. For girls.... pants. =( What's your favorite type of music?: Punk! Emo-punk, anyway. Are you doing well in school?: Awesome, I attend 100% of the classes I take, which is to say, 0. Personal* Do you judge people?: Sure do. I think everyone does. Do you think you're better than others: Chyeah, how could I not? I'm awesome. How often do you think about your crush?: Crush? Oh. Uh. Sometimes. Four? I dunno. Is there a measurement? Do you see the person a lot?: No. Have you ever pictured him/her naked?: Nossir. I'm a nice boy, like that. Bottomless pit* Are you a female or male?: Male, fag. Stop hitting on me. Do you have long or short hair?: Short, sexay. Gold or silver?: Silver, duh. Nerd. Rap or rock: There's a difference, now? Um... Both. Haha! R&b or rock: What? This... What? Both! Green Day or The Offspring: Greenday. The newer GD albums are better than Offspring, and I like the older Greenday than I like the older Offspring(though both were great) Kanye West or Mario: Kanye West. I keep expecting to see a video of Mario feat. Luigi. Are you happy with where you are right now in life?: We went over this, already. Gawd! Do you like hats?: No. Hats are for gays. Like you. Hatty guy. Do you own a lot of shoes?:Fuck no/ How many do you wear?: My boots, mostly, but sometimes the sneakers. Do you have a favorite store to shop from? (name it if you do): Chapters? Contacts/glasses/none: No way, I'm cool. I don't have bad eyesight, unlike EVERYONE in the world. When did you realize what kind of person you were?: When I was seven? Do you like the new year so far?: It's like the last year, only not as odd. GET IT. IT'S FUNNY. Are you into emo/screamo/anything like that?: Emo and Screamo are the same, shithead. So yes. How long are your nails?: I just cut them, like five minutes ago. Not my toenails though. Shhh. Nobody must know my horrible secret. Favorite movie: Hard to say. Flatliners, or Ninja Strikes Back, or Highlander 2, or Boondock Saints. Favorite group: Uhh. Armor For Sleep, I guess, is my current fave. Favorite singer: Maynard James Keenan. He makes me touch myself. Favorite thing to do in a department store: Do your mom. I mean... shop with chicks. Love life* Do you have a crush?: Yes. You know these questions are in a weird order? Are you a single person?: I'm like, six people. Oh, you mean, am I single? Yes. If not, then who is it?: If you are, then are you content with it?: Fo'sho. I think. Ever been in love?: Ch'yah! Right now?: Naw. Sex life* ..how far have you gone?: Where no man has gone before. Well, I guess lots of men have been to your mom's bed... Yeah, I've been 'all the way'. Are you a virgin?: In the sense that I have not been penetrated by a penis, yes, I am a virgin. Ever been drunk and done someone you didn't know?:I do know I woke up with someone's bra in my hand. I dunno whose it was. Do you like doing the shibbity-dibbity?: Shibbity-dibbity? Is... is that a new term you kids are using? Are you ashamed to answer these types of questions?: No, who's gonna read this crap? Why or why not?: See above. Bottomless pit2* Do you like meeting new people?: Yup! I can't remember their names, though. Are you anti social?: Kinda/ Do you believe women should stay at home/in the kitchen?: Fuck yes, they should also be on their knees if I'm home. Naw, seriously, though, I love women, and respect them as equals. Are you a feminist?: I'm an equalist, not a feminist. Do you love double standards?: Yes, but not when other people hold double standards. Do you believe in ghosts?: Not really. How about U.F.Os?: These questions are dumb. Have a bestfriend?: I have like six. Would you trust your life in their hnds?: Yes. Do you think they'd feel the same?: Fo'sho. Willing to actually bet your life on that?: What is that, a threat? How long have you known that person?: Uh, I've known D for 15 years, James for 16 years, Bill for 8 years, Morgan for 8 years, and Alanna for 5 years. Oh, and Cavan for, um... two and a half. Can I know who it is?: What? I just told you! Are you homosexual?:I like to pretend I am, cause it makes people uncomfortable. Are you homophobic?:Sadly, no. Do you like, have any phobias?: Heights, spiders, being alone. Willing to share?: Wha? LEARN TO READ. Ever snuck someone into your house?: Yes? Why... Why is that the last question? You're so lame. I win. | | 4:50 am |
OH RIGHT
I guess I should actually talk about 'stuff'. Alanna called me today, and we talked for a while. I really missed talking to her, she's so great to listen to, or to talk to, because she listens, and we understand each other. She said to me "I'm going to say something that you may react to with 'You shouldn't have said that' but I have to say it anyway." I said "Okay, go ahead. I probably won't." She says "We're like, the couple that was never meant to be." I agreed, and we decided that the world was determined to keep us apart, as close friends, and nothing more. It turns out her boyfriend, Geoff, is really jealous of me(I gave her a hug, because I'd missed her so bad, when I saw her around Christmas, and then Geoff gave me a douchey attitude, but I turned the other cheek and let it go.), and there are a lot of rumours about my involvement in Alanna's life, and the apparent dispute between her and Jessica(though I still have no idea what that's about... Jessica doesn't even hang out at Lisette's, soooo... I dunno!). But that's drama, and that's part of why I don't live in Victoria. Here, in Van... I have no drama, my life is pretty simple. The intertron gives me all the drama a guy could dream of, as it is, and even then I'm pulling away from most of it. I'm done with Furcadia, I've changed journals, deleted/blocked most of the people who I felt were causing undue emotional stress in my life, and things are much more relaxed, though I'm still somewhat anxious about how my departure has affected those people. Oh well, I'm sure they'll get over it. I'm kind of looking forward to the new system change, because it'll be an opprotunity to learn something new, and to pick up extra hours at an easy pace. Then I'll work on becoming a supervisor, whether anyone likes it or not. Then... I dunno. Something Alanna said to me, of her 'schedule', kinda threw me off... I kept seeing where I could fit in to her schedule, and... I dunno. But you know me, I'm not one for plans. She said, at first, "When I marry, it'll be a guy with a plan..." I said "Hah, yeah, well, not me, then. I can barely plan a week in advance." She changed her statement, saying "Well... a guy with a salary, I mean, something stable." So... Yes. That's that. I mean, she's with Geoff, now, yeah, but I don't(and this is no offense to Geoff or Alanna, here) really see them working out... Alanna's got ambition, and I can hardly imagine her staying with a guy who wants to be a musician for very long. She risked too much with John, from Scotland, and we(which is to say, I) know how that turned out. But, I still love her, as a friend, and as something a little more wistful. But, more importantly, as a friend. She is easily one of my best friends. And thinking of best friends reminds me of Bill, whom I should speak with very soon. ~Shoebox | | 4:40 am |
I <3 the new Armor For Sleep album. It's like, so good. Especially the first, um, four tracks. Super god. Also, Maynard James Keenan is still my god. Lyk, omigawd! Cool Spot still rocks ass. | | Thursday, January 12th, 2006 | | 5:36 am |
"You wouldn't know cool if it bit you in the ass." Oh yeah? Well...  | | 4:57 am |
TRAPALA LAPADOO! CHARRRRGE! |
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